for Him aLone

2007-09-01T22:44:00.000+08:00

So what if you had a the perfect life
So what if you had 2 As and a B (that B must have really spoilt your day huh)
So what if your top matched your bottom and shoes
So what if you had perfectly manicured nails
So what if the way you talked was cool, punctuated with profanity
So what if the way you walked was the trend
So what if you had the best shopping pals
So what if you knew about the best-kept secrets

So what happens if one day your perfect world came crashing down
So what happens if you get Us for exams
So what happens if you're no longer the popular kid in school
So what happens if your pink tee and neon green pants don't match
So what happens if there's no one to share your secrets with
So what happens if there's no one to depend on when you're lonely
So what happens if there is no love?
So what happenes if men fail?
God never fails.

1 Corinthians 13 [NIV]

Love

1If I speak in the tonguesof men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal.
2If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing.
3If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames,but have not love, I gain nothing.
4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

1 Peter 4:7, 8

7The end of all things is near. Therefore be clear minded and self-controlled so that you can pray.
8Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins.

2007-07-14T22:03:00.000+08:00

Agape
Lyrics and Music by Jocelyn Ong

A9b5
From the darkness you hide
E9/G#
And fears that trouble you inside
F#m7add4
Jesus calls out to you
B7add4 E9maj7
Don't let Him pass you by
E/G# A9b5
Step out to the light
E9/G#
Drink from rivers of life
F#m7add4
Believe He died to save you
Badd4 E9maj7
And receive eternal life

E/G# A9b5
For Jesus
E9/G#
Has come to save
F#m7add4
That which was lost
B7add4
Those who are lost

E9 F#m7add4 D9/G# A9maj7
So I fall into Your outstretched arms
F#m7add4 E9/G# A9maj7 B7add4
And release the fears that hold me down
E9 F#m7add4 E9/G# A9maj7
Nail-pierced hands and blood-stained brow
D9
And now I am found
B7add4
Agape surrounds

Jesus guide my way
Light my path anew each day
Illumine my direction
And strengthen me to obey
Rescue my whole being
From searching, running, hurting
You are my direction
Oh Lord, lead the way

Jesus is the way

2007-07-07T00:16:00.000+08:00

Ohh, I had such a long and zonked out day. AHhh.

Today's a Friday right, so it's the shortest school day of the week, but it felt as long as any other day. During geog tutorial,

Lilin: Grace, you were sleeping during geog!
Me: No, I wasn't.
Lilin: I saw you closing you eyes.
Me: Ahh, I was resting.
Lilin: That means you slept la!
Me: No, I was resting and listening.
Lilin: So you can multitask huh?
Me: Haha, yeah.

Obviously, I slept without even knowing it, but I was still subconsciously listening to what was going on. Gah. And then, during our slacky PW period, my group was chatting away. They probably allowed it cos it was considered as a team bonding activity. Heh. And so, my boring school day was finally over.

In the afternoon, I attended Erika's scholarship ceremony with a few others. Surprisingly, I saw 6 other people whom I recognise, getting the scholarships too. Cool. Tecky, Hong Wei, Khee Onn, Nadia Shah, the NPCC guy from BP and Yi Biao, my primary school classmate. Congrats again to all of you! When I stepped into NP, I was so shocked cos it was like a mini HDB estate! There was a food centre, a library and what's most amazing, they had their own traffic light and zebra crossing! My goodness! Shocking!

Yeah, we went shopping later on and Tim (if you're reading this), you do realise that we followed you the whole afternoon so you could get your stuff but you didnt get anything in the end! Haha. Well, 1 lesson I learnt today was to never go shopping after school with all your school stuff. Firstly, you'll end up extra tired and whiny. Secondly, you can't use you hands very much as they are already occupied with your bags. Thirdly, you're not in the mood for shopping after all that school stuff's drilled into your head. It was kinda uncomfortable, which was further aggravated by the warm and humid weather. Oh, but the highlight of the day was *drum roll*...

Zephy, Syahir and I waited for 21 buses to get home! Yay! How exciting right. We were at the 190 bus stop, waiting for space on the buses (or in fact waiting for the buses to stop at the bay so we could board, which a few didn't), and then walking to the 700 bustop in hope of getting onto a realtively empty 700 or 171. But no, it didn't happen happen of cos. So we queued for the taxi at the stand. Haha, after a while, 2 rather empty 190s passed but no, we didn't go for it cos we were already in the queue. Ok, so in the end we decided to take 190 and chased after the next bus, which of course, we missed again. (that was the 20th one btw). And we finally got on the 21st bus. Yay, *applause*. I've never waited this long for a bus la. 1 hr!! Wahhhh. Irritating. So, another lesson learnt is, don't take the public transport during peak hours or late at night. You'll either squeeze or wait like crazy. I was super zonked out by then la.

Oh, and when we were at the taxi stand of some really glam hotel, I took a peek at the toilet and guess what? It's fit for royalty! Apparently, the sign on the door read 'Queen'. The toilet was plastered with red stripey wallpaper, adorned with chunky-framed mirrors and was fitted with halogen lights in each cubicle. The toilet seat was like made of dark wood and wahh, the flush was touch-sensored! Amazing. The sink right, was super high tech. The tap was automatic (quite common nowadays), but the soap dispenser was controlled by a touch sensor too!!! Oh my goodness! I thought I stepped into the wrong place or something. Who knows, there might be a hidden camera somewhere. The toilet was so grand, no one was inside and it was rather creepy actually. Haha yeah, but it was cool. Yup.

And yes, that's the end of my zonked out day. I'm so tired!

2007-07-04T22:40:00.000+08:00

Well, well. This school week was off to a stable start. You know, I'm glad we can go to school, cos it makes the day so worthwhile. Like, you wake up real early in the morning and make full use of every single minute till the end of school and then you go fo CCA which is not time wasted at all, take a short break and then mugg or do homework or whatever till it's time to hit the sack. It's like every minute is used and not wasted. So cool. As compared to the holidays where the day goes by so quickly without us having to do anything but to slack. So uneventful. Ok, maybe school's not the only factor which fills the void of the day. But in any case, I think my day wasn't wasted (not counting the time I slept during Lit! ah, felt so bad, but I couldn't help it, i was just sooo sleepy. at least i still took notes. haha)

Yup, tmr's a fresh new school day and I end early tmr!! Yay. Better use the time after school to mugg! Need to revise a lot of stuff. It's about 12 more week to PROMOS. Start now people! (hey, that's still quite a long time away actually. hehe)

2007-07-02T23:39:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EUNICE!

Yup, we had a surprise birthday party for Eunice today at her place. Glad she enjoyed it, even though most of the time we were all talking among ourselves. Oh well. (at least I got to know more about what Dot's doing, which is real cool stuff) We got Eunice this really cool (literally) water cooler thingy from Toy 'R' Us. Hey, I think it's quite useful. I mean, I would love to have one in my room! And Clarice's durian cake was real good, even though she kept saying it was an ugly durian cake, haha. You should bake such stuff more often! Oh man, and guessed what happened, I walked from Lakeside MRT station to Jurong Point, haha, it's quite far actually. Saw 2 fat chameleons along the way. EEKS. And what's most eeky today, I think a lizard or something small which could move went into my shoe and crawled out soon after that. Yucks. Don't ask me what that was, I couldn't see in the dark, and I don't think I wanna know.

And speaking about talking among ourselves, I see myself surrounded by cliques everyday! I'm not saying that cliques are meant to be condemned, that they should disappear from the face of the earth and should be totally eradicated. What I'm saying is, we should learn how to step out of our comfort zone! Sure, I know how home-y it can feel when you're together with close friends and always hang out together, there's this sense of familiarity, comfort and trust right? But what about those who don't have a clique? What about those who can't fit in? What about those who just blend into our lives without us even noticing them? Kinda sad right, when we're all so enthusiastic about oh, reaching the world for Christ, going to the ends of the earth, being missionaries.

This post is not meant to offend or to arrow anyone (oh no, that's not my intention at all) but to gently remind every single one of us. Well, for starters, I'm guilty of what I'm against. I know I can't mix around with others when I find it difficult to fit in myself. (Yes, I do face such situations many a time.) So, that's something which I have to learn how to overcome. What about you? I know of people who see beyond themselves and give selflessly. Hospitality comes as second nature to them. Well, you may say that no no no, that isn't placed number #1 on your agenda list but, it's not an excuse to hog the 'privilege' of exclusivity. Yup. That's all I have to rant about for the day.

2007-07-01T21:12:00.000+08:00

Finally, a new blog template. but, surprise surprise (or no surprise for that matter), I don't have anything to blog out. Heh. Just that we're going for Suki on Tue, kinda excited at first. But Lilin's not going now, aiya, sad. Ok, I'm sure we'll still have lotsa fun. Gah, i'll post again when I have something post-worthy (or when i rmb a significant event. my mine's totally blank now).

2007-06-07T00:09:00.000+08:00

人与人之间应该和睦共处。每天吵架有什么意思呢？不说也不知（未必如此），人生难免会遇到挫折，但是，要用什么最佳方法来解决问题？上帝。我相信，在这个过程当中能吸取到无价之宝的人生经验。

而是在这困境中，上帝可以开始改造你我的生活。我猜这是一个长期的过程，并不是永恒的折磨，而是永恒的改造和教导。

"Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance."
James 1:2, 3

2007-05-29T23:29:00.001+08:00

OK. NOW I GOT MY BLOG BACK. I REALISED THAT MY USERID WAS SOMETHING ELSE ALL ALONG! SO SILLY. OK.

Anyway, I have been doing CIP at thie Wildlife Research Centre. Kinda cool, we're painting a mural on the wall. Thing is, the place is rather unaccesible. Good thing we had a ride from Michelle's dad. If not, haiyo, we can prepare to hike for at least a km. So, the mural's coming along. Going back the next two days to finish it up. Jia you everyone!

I feel like changing my blog template again!

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2007-03-20T23:25:00.000+08:00

Here are the photos from Popo's birthday dinner. If I'm not wrong, she's 89 this year! It's been a long time. I still remember her taking care of me when I was just a little girl and she would carry me around the balcony so I could look out. (Even though we were living at the 2nd storey at that time and all I could see were trees). So thankful for my relatives because we share such good times and I really love all my little cousins. Haha!

2007-03-17T23:40:00.000+08:00

Haha, I guess it has been a rather fruitful day. Even though Madam kept keeping me on my toes (I was super nervous and stressed after that la.. my goodness - it was like the same feeling I had during musical rehearsals. oOo), there'll still be more to come, at least my mistakes are corrected now and not later on closer to the competition and concert. So yeah.. And, what's most important was that we celebrated Popo's birthday! I love my Popo. Oo. Haha, and I laughed sooo much tonight.. so tickled by Chuan Ning, Gladys and Mr Timmy. Haha. If you guys are wondering who Mr Timmy is, he's my five-year-old cousin who's super energetic. Heh, way too funny. Dinner was great! All thanks to my uncle.. haha. And thanks for the ride home too!

2007-03-17T00:32:00.000+08:00

Hey everyone, I think today's Senior Web Zone Outing was a success. Thanks to everyone who made it possible - be it in planning, playing or just being there. Yup, thanks for everything. We should have such events more often ya. Heh. Okok, I'll blog when there's more time. Right now, I need my beauty sleep to help me last through the looooong day tmr! I can't wait for tmr too. Choir practice. Yeah.. nights!

2007-03-15T15:03:00.000+08:00

It's midway through the March hols now. What have u guys been up to? I've had 2 piano exams! Ok, it was all postponed from last year cos of 'o's, my bad. Anyway, haven't done anything else which can be considered productive unless you consider reading about 5 pages of the GP pacakges justifiable to the claim I just made. Oh well, so today's the only free day I have and I guess I'm supposed to spend time catching up with revision and homework and I simply have no mood to do so now. BUT, I have lots reasons to motivate myself to get down to it since I'll probably not have time for my work for the rest of the week. And oh, wait till school reopens - the workload will be piling up. What a to do to do, to juggle school work, choir, and all the WG stuff!! WoOoOooo. Just let me ramble on (I guess it helps to stress myself, and stress is good at this point in time). N.B. You don't have to read all this nonsense. It's just pure babbling.

Reasons why I should go do my work like right now:
1. I only have about 5 hours left today (after taking away the time to watch the telly!) to complete my math tutorial on mathematical induction, finish reading my GP package, read up on all my other notes which I haven't touched for the past week.
2. 98.7FM has good music now, so I should go listen to it while doing my math.
3. The next time when I'm free to really sit down to do my work would be on Sunday afternoon and that's like really close to Monday and I'll be super stressed. So I should stress myself today instead. (Does that make sense to you?)
4. Cos I haven't touched my work during the whole of the March holidays till today.
5. I need to live up to everyone's expectations of me being a die-hard mugger (which I'm so not, but slowly achieving to be I hope. Just to digress, wouldn't it be nice to be able to work hard and play hard? Unfortunately, that's terribly difficult for me to do.)
6. Cos I'm seriously wasting time blogging. Then again, it's not a waste of time, I'm taking a break. Heh.

Reasons why I should extend my break:
1. My brain's not exactly in its peak at the moment and isn't responding quickly to the tasks assigned to it. It's warming up though.. Lilin: I'm sure you can be witness to my state at the moment. Haha, she can tell when my brain's really blunt ( oh, I mean, when it isn't sharp) in the morning. Cos I can really switch off just like that. That's not a good sign. Uh uh.
2. Cos I have to call Erika now! How timely. Ok, tata for now.

THANKSGIVING

2007-02-09T21:19:00.000+08:00

Results were out today. Oh well, I thought I'd score badly. I didn't get to go up on stage, which was kinda "oh-well-ish"...... HAHA, but I did better than expected. It's really God's grace. It is. It's definitely not something which I can achieve based solely on my own strength. Seriously. So, I'm really thankful for my results. Not only is it way above my expectations (or below for that matter), it allows me to enter the school through results alone. I don't think I have to appeal!! Yippee. There are so many people whom I would love to thank..

Mr Tan and Mrs Chan: For SS consultations. Without them, I probably wouldn't know the difference between reliability and assertion. They really taught me how to think deeply and write my answer with relevance to the question. This skill is not only applicable in SS but even for GP now.

Mr Tom Chan: For believing me and supporting me the whole way. For always being there. So grateful for him. I still remember, when I was in his PE class in sec 1, he bothered to remember my name. That really left a lasting impression. Thanks Mr Chan!!

Mr Loh: Even though I didn't score well for physics (sc was never my thing), I'd still like to thank him for all the effort that he has put in. He's so passionate about physics man..

Ms Ong: Oh my my, she really opened my eyes to lit. She was so inspiring, the way that she crafted her answers showed depth and insight. Whoaa.. and from Bs and Cs in lower sec, I got As! All thanks to her.. And now I'm taking H1 lit. :) (i'm not taking h2 cos i have to read up on 5 bks.. no thks.)

The other teachers: For their effort, passion, patience, care and concern. I really do appreciate it. Without you, there's no me. (ooh, that's slightly cliched)

Yeah, BP rocks my socks.

To those who did well: Congrats! Keep up the great work! Don't slack ah.. I'm really proud of you guys.. So great!

To those who didn't meet their expectation: It isn't the end of everything. Try harder! Be positive. Don't give up just yet (don't even think of giving up), press on! Zai jie zai li. Don't let something like 'o's get to you. It shouldn't be your stumbling block, but a stepping stone. :)

To j2s in choir: Thanks for the support! You guys are really nice and I'm glad that I have the privilege to be among you and 'make music'. Hehe, yeah.. Yeah, and I like buddy buddy Colleen and Wan Ling. :)

2006-12-27T15:36:00.000+08:00

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2006-12-25T00:48:00.000+08:00

MY MUM ROCKED YOUR SOCKS, DIDN'T SHE?

Haha, when she told me that she would be dancing for the Christmas party, I thought it was going to be soooo super embarrassing. Well, it didn't turned out to be as bad as I thought. She was relatively great. Haha. The one who stood out the most!

Since young, her outspokeness and extrovert personality have always overshadowed mine. Seemed like I was always in the background; the shy and quiet one. It was only after I entered secondary school that I didn't spend as much time with her and got to be more independent - I became more and more confident and could speak up. I'm not saying that it's because of my mum that my communication skills were lacking, it's just that I didn''t make the effort to create oppurtunities for myself to break out of the shell: to be who I really am. My mother was always there to provide the communicative link, I didn't have to do anything.

So, being the shy, quiet and narrow-minded one, I was cringing at the thought of having my mum to dance on stage, with all my friends looking on. What would they say?? Well, all I can say is, thanks guys, for the positive comments. I'll pass them on to my mum. :)

It was ok afterall. Allow me to step out of my introvert nature and embrace confidence and boldness! Lol. To see my mum for who she really is. She rocks my socks at times.

2006-12-08T00:03:00.000+08:00

Hey everyone, I'm at Changi Airport now! Woo hoo, going to China! Hope there's really good food there. Heard it's da zha xie (river crab) season now! Hehe, great! Ok, boarding plane in probably like less than an hour's time. So exciting!

Have fun at home guys! Heh. Get your bums off the couch and do something meaningful! Go go! Like.. art and craft or something? Haha, that's what I'd do. Have fun, have fun! I'll be having fun!

P.s. Was soo hesitant about the trip beforehand. But now, haha, i'm just raring to go!

See ya when I'm back!!!!!!!!! :) :)

2006-12-04T19:24:00.000+08:00

Min Yi and Claire came over to swim together. It was rather refreshing, haven't been swimming for a looong time. After an hour or so, I got a tan. That's super duper quick! Anyway, we headed down to BPP to get ice cream (ooh, it was lovely, shld try the dark chocolate one at the shop on level1). And then, we went to Bread Talk where we spotted a sign for part timers. Haha, we went in to apply and well, after much talking, Min Yi got the job, cos she's free during the hols. I'm not sure if the person will still contact me for the job, I don't really think soo.. Yup, if anyone is interested, it's...

BPP Bread Talk
$4 an hr. 3-4 days a week. Mostly night shifts from 7-11pm.
Most imptly, it's fun! You get to say stuff like, "Welcome to Bread Talk!"and "Please come again!" So fun right.. Hee..

These should be the impt details i think..

Min Yi's starting work on Wed. Can go down to see her! :)

2006-12-02T23:44:00.000+08:00

Prom Night Photos

http://www.imagestation.com/album/pictures.html?id=2098674105

2006-12-02T23:02:00.000+08:00

Well, I wonder if current friendships can last past JC life. As the saying goes, "The only thing that is constant is change." People change, conditions change. Nothing will be the same forever on Earth. What will JC life be like? Like what Suzanne said, it will be a new chapter in my life. Hopefully, it will be a fruitful and fulfilling one. I wouldn't say that the future is bleak or bright, but it is beyond my comprehension, something which I do not have control of. It seems like I'm charging through a cloud, not knowing what's behind it, uncertain, doubtful.

"Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. "
Matthew 6:34

2006-12-01T23:35:00.000+08:00

Graduation - Vitamin C

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
We'd get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fairAnd this is how it feels

As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come whatever
We will still be
Friends forever

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

La, la, la, la:
Yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la:
We will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this townI keep,
I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

2006-12-01T15:22:00.000+08:00

Choir:
To the new committee members, thanks for putting in so much effort for the ROD. You guys did a fantastic job. Never thought that we would be doing an amazing race in Sentosa. My goodness, I remember walking from beach carpark to Siloso Beach, through the trail to Images of Singapore, back to beach carpark, then to Palawan Beach then finally heading back to Siloso Beach. And guess what? We walked the whole way! Poor legs.. Haha, but it was fun nonetheless.
Mor: thanks for the CD and gifts, must have put in a tremendous amount of effort ya!

208:
After 4 years, we're still so close and I'm really thankful for that. I miss the times where we would sit together just to chit chat. Those were the days ya.. I miss the people that I hang out with, I miss the times when we did things together and worked as a class, I miss cheering com... I just want to let you guys know that all of you have made a difference in my life, supported me when I needed it most and stood by me no matter what. Thank you so much! So pls do keep in contact k. And we must have a class outing every year!! I remember telling that to my p6 class, but now, we hardly keep in contact, hardly have class outings. Really hope that 208 will be different. Can you imagine us at a class outing 20 years later? That would be super cool! Uh huh. You guys rock!

4P2:
Hey guys, thanks for being such a fun class! Had many good memories in the cabin. I'm really glad I was able to stick with the bunch- Joan, Cheryl, Jas and Weini. And it really helped me a lot cos I had people to stick to, if not I'd just be a loner in class. Sad huh. So thanks, girls, for being there. And for the rest of the people in 4P2, it's been great getting to know you all, especially darling Shu Qing! Hee hee..

Fishbone Comm:
Helloooooo! Great work at Fishbone! I looove the chocolate cake. It was so good! Yummy! The waiters were all so helpful and polite (must have had a lot of training ya (:) and the bands were great, especially Danny's. Hee. Thank you, kitchen crew for all your delicious concoctions. Mm hmm.. Well, Life Hurts's tomorrow. Remember to invite your friends!

BP 06:
Many thanks to the committee who made Prom Night possible. It was great! Haha, but it was a tad wild at the end with all the dancing. Didn't really manage to fit in. Haha, but the atmosphere was great. Come to think of it, it's the last time where we can all hang out together for the year, before we collect our results! (oh, the horror of horrors). It's quite sad right, sigh, nothing will ever be the same. On the way home last night, I was just thinking about BP and all the people that I've met. Should all aquaintances be forgotten and never brought to mind? Is that how things will turn out in JC? I really hope not. Keep the BPian spirit alive!

Will be uploading photos from Prom Night soon. :)

2006-10-02T18:43:00.000+08:00

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2006-08-13T00:30:00.000+08:00

There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven: a time to be born and a time to die, a time to plant and a time to uproot, a time to kill and a time to heal, a time to tear down and a time to build, a time to weep and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance, a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them, a time to embrace and a time to refrain, a time to search and a time to give up, a time to keep and a time to throw away, a time to tear and a time to mend, a time to be silent and a time to speak, a time to love and a time to hate, a time for war and a time for peace.

What does the worker gain from his toil? I have seen the burden God has laid on men. He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the hearts of men; yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end. I know that there is nothing better for men than to be happy and do good while they live. That everyone may eat and drink, and find satisfaction in his toil- this is the gift of God. I know that everything God does will endure forever; nothing can be added to it and nothing taken from it. God does it so that men will revere him.

Whatever is has already been, and what will be has been before; and God will call the past to account. And I saw something else under the sun: In the place of judgement- wickedness was there, in the place of justice- wickedness was there. I thought in my heart, "God will bring to judgement both the righteous and the wicked, for there will be a time for every activity, a time for every deed."

I also thought, "As for men, God tests them so that they may see that they are like the animals. Man's fate is like that of the animals;the same fate awaits them both: As on dies, so dies the other. All have the same breath; man has no advantage over the animal. Everything is meaningless. All go to the same place; all come from dust, and to dust all return. Who knows if the spirit of man rises upward and if the spirit of the animal goes down into the earth? So I saw that there is nothing better for a man than to enjoy his work, beacuse that is his lot. For what can bring him to see what will happen after him?

-Ecclesiastes 3-

2006-08-10T19:22:00.000+08:00

Oh yay, I got a new layout! Haha.. btw, if anyone wants a link here or has an updated link, just leave a tag and i'll take note of it. :) won't be blogging often, or blogging at all. prelims are coming ya. so mugg mugg everyone!

If you guys could leave some studying tips or tips on how to tackle the subjects that we're taking, pls feel free to leave tags ya! in short, just tag! hehe, might not see it regularly, but it's nice to see that the blog is still alive right? it'll be great if it's like a forum.. hmm..

2006-08-10T00:22:00.000+08:00

HELLOOOS. LOOK OUT FOR A REVAMP. (I HOPE..) HEE HEE. :) MORE UPDATED LINKS COMING UP.

2006-04-20T19:37:00.000+08:00

Whoa, I miraculously got through today without feeling extra tired. God's grace, yes it is. Right after school, we had debates. And, er-herm, we lost. By two points. David and Danial, if you guys are reading this, you two did a good job! Only L1 did it better..haha. I'm joking. Don't feel bad la.. I was very blur throughout the whole thing as well. Haha.. And then right after debates, we had physics test. Good thing it was MCQ only. But it's counted for CA! And then, right after the test, we had choir practice and then right after choir practice we had musical rehearsal. Waltz again. So, the whole day was just continuously packed with activities and the only break was recess. Whew! And I made it! Yay...

Ahh.. and waltz is seriously not easy. Especially since it's a partner dance. Anyone with me?

And... *drum roll*... MYE's in 5 days! Stress out man!

2006-04-18T17:23:00.000+08:00

I just came back from the dentist. Goodness, this was an appoinment I had put off for almost a year! After taking off my braces, my teeth were still not very stable so I had to wear retainers. Teeth do shift even after braces, only they wouldn't go back to their original postion, thank goodness. So, the gum above one of my tooth had some stubborn fibre in it and that tooth kept shifting everyday, even till now. Did a cut above that shifty tooth today. And of course, before cutting, had to inject anesthesia and boy, it was painful. Now, the numbeness' wearing off and I'm going to suffer tonight. Boy oh boy. And MYE's in 7 days! Shouts!!

2006-04-14T21:37:00.000+08:00

Hey everyone, it's Good Friday! And do you know what it means? Many, many years ago, Jesus died on the cross for our sins. Ok, it may seem a little cliche when you read this, I know. However, think about it. Someone, a special someone, was sent to die for your sins and mine. Your closest kins would probably not even do that for you, what more the great and awesome God. Who are we that He should die for us? His beloved children, that's who we are in Christ. And the best part is, Jesus resurrected 3 days later! It's not as simple as that. There's more than meets the eye. The spiritual battle had been fought and Jesus won, victory belongs to the Lord. We do not have to succumb to Satan's devilish plans any longer, cos we are free!

People, Good Friday and Easter are not about eggs and bunnies. These significant events have become so commercialised and others make money out of it. I'm not saying it's wrong to grab hold of opportunities and take advantage of it (legally), but it's the way it is being done that allows these special events to lose their true meaning.

I was watching the news just now and the reporter was interviewing these special ed kids, asking them about Good Friday. The answers that they gave were, seriously, textbook answers. Nothing wrong. I don't have anything against them. (My cousin has cerebral palsy and I love him all the same.) I'm just wondering if they really know what they are saying. I'm sure some kids do. But what about the others? They were painting eggs as a Good Friday activity. The aim of "come-let's-gather-and-paint-eggs-event" was to foster good relationships between people of different religions and to allow the kids to understand more about each other. This is great of course (govt's aim to maintain social cohesion and racial and religious harmony is well-received by the people), but.. I feel that painting eggs, or having eggs as the main theme is not going to help others understand about Good Friday. You know what I mean? Why not screen videos, maybe cartoon-style (for the children), about what really happened during Good Friday. Or collaborate with radio stations to read the gospel on air and play songs? Wouldn't that be cool..

I'm sorry if anyone gets offended reading this. It's just my opinion on the matter.
Thanks to Jon for his drawing! Yeah!

We are the reason that He gave His life,
We are the reason that He suffered and died,
To a world that was lost, He gave all He could give

To show us the reason to live.

2006-04-09T12:14:00.000+08:00

Roses wilt and die,

Birds flit and fly.

Man live and lie,

Life isn't just like a pie.

It's not just plain happiness within, JOY ABOUNDS!

2006-03-07T18:27:00.000+08:00

I'm just so grateful for the friends around me. Be it school friends or church friends. So thankful for them.

2006-02-13T18:47:00.000+08:00

Do you find it difficult to trust God at times? Cos you can't feel Him, can't see Him. I guess the first step to learn how to trust is to surrender. Put your pride aside, let Him do the job, instead of fretting about on your own.

I trusted that God would show me His will on a certain matter. You know, if it goes the way I want, of course, yay! But if it doesn't, I know He has better plans for me to be somewhere else. Yes, and God definitely answers prayers BUT in His own time. Yup, so for those who are feeling down and dejected, cheer up. There's a God who's waiting for you to embrace Him in His arms, He is ever faithful.

2006-02-10T21:08:00.000+08:00

Yup, I'm shortlisted. Is that a good or bad thing? I don't know. Part of me wants to go for it, but the other part.. helllo.. it's 'o' level year. Was talking to Aunty Mee Huan bout it today. She said to go for it, sure can cope. Afterall, Jon did. Ok, but Jon's smart and hardworking. So, it's a totally different story. Well, maybe if I start doing my work while travelling as well, yah, I'd probabaly be able to cope. But then again, all these are a little exaggerated. The practices are 3 times a week. Yah, but I can't forget my piano class, tuition, church activities.. Haha, I may not even remain shortlisted in the first place! I know what you're thinking now. "Girls, they can be so confusing." Whatever. There's going to be a practice/rehearsal/lesson/2nd round whatever you call it on mon. I can't wait. But at the same time I can. Sigh, so confusing right. Anyway, there's no tuition on mon!! Yippee!! Oh, means I don't have to finish my homework yet. Hehe..

Haha, I think I should buck up a little. Hee. Pull uppp those socks!!

2006-02-09T18:59:00.000+08:00

Ahhhhhhhhhh! The audition was today. I guess it went well for me, although I didn't get to sing. Ok, this was how it went.

Director: Ok, write your names down. So are you able to hold the stage on your own?
Me: Yah, I would love to.
Director: Now read the passage for me.
Me: Read read read.
Director: Good. So which range do you sing?
Me: Soprano.
Director: Now look at this pen and smile.

Then we went to the back to dance.

Instructor: Look and follow me. Good girl!
Later on..
Instructor: Can I have your name?

Ok, so what does it mean? Ahh, I don't even know when the results are coming out. So gan cheong. I don't know how to feel now. And I can't talk to the rest. They proabably feel disappointed at their own performance and don't wanna ever talk about it anymore. Sigh. Let's see what the outcome will be..

2006-02-08T16:59:00.000+08:00

Yup, I've got a new blogskin. This is so much easier on the eyes than the previous one. Although the words are a little small. So you guys might want to change the font setting to medium cos I don't know how to change the font over here. Lol.

Haha, a really funny thing happened today. Don't know if 'funny' is the right word to use though. As I was walking home from the LRT station with Yan Tian, someone tapped on my shoulder. I thought it would be someone from sch. But alas, no. It's some Fajar guy and guess what he said, "Can I have your number?" And then I replied, "No, sorry." Poor guy la. His friends were laughing at him. Sometimes, such things happened among neighbourhood schools. I wonder if those studying at elite schools face this kind of situation as well.. Hmm.. Never thought someone would come up to me. I thought it was Yiyao ok..

Aside from this, tomorrow's the musical auditions!! I'm sooo excited! Really hope I can get a good role. I mean, it's much better than playing a fork or spoon. Sigh. Yay, can't wait!! There's so much competition..

2006-01-27T23:27:00.000+08:00

Haha, come to think of it, I don't like the new skin. Whatever, it's red and it can be used for CNY. Talking about CNY, I still don't know what to wear! Ok, you guys would probably think, "Grace has to squeeze her brains over what to wear? Just wear shirt and jeans la!" Helloo.. What era are u in. I'm not in primary school anymore. Oh, did you all know, my fashion sense in primary school was so bad. I was also probably one of the ugliest girls around. Haha, I'm serious! I had traffic jam teeth, some weird smile, short hair which wasn't layerd, horrible haristyles, huge spectacles and I always wore the same type of clothes. Nothing wrong with that, nothing wrong with that at all. But seriously, dressing well gives you, ok, gives me confidence. I feel that I'm able to hold myself better. It's not a matter of showing off ok, it's a matter of how you(i) carry yourself (myself). Yup, so coming back to CNY, lemme rack my brains over matching up 4 outfits for the new year. No.. I'm not going to wear 2 sets a day, it's for the reunion dinner, day 1, day 2 and my birthday!!! Yay!! Haha..

2006-01-24T23:05:00.000+08:00

Ahh, PE was a killer today. LJS really pushed us to the limit. We did like about 75 jumping jacks, strectching, push ups (i really don't like that) and 4 rounds power round. Complete each round in 1 min 45 sec. It's actually ok (cos i managed to clock abt 1 min 25 sec to 1 min 30 sec each round) but it's only the first lesson! Actually, sice we're joining sports day, i wanted to ask him to increase the running. But now, I think, it's more than enough. LJS is quite funny actually, only his commando style PE is crazy! Hopefully, we can train ourselves and at least gain from his lessons. If not, I'd rather get MC for the whole year.

I'm going to dread the next PE lesson. We'll be doing 5 power rounds!!

Aiyo, today was bad enough. Got headache, felt like puking, muscle aches, blister. Haiyo. so out of shape man.

But he's still nice. Well, that's a good sign.

2006-01-19T19:02:00.000+08:00

It was aite. I mean the assembly thing today. Yes, I got to meet Joshua from "I Not Stupid Too", got to talk to him, shake his hand, the formalities. I thought it would be different, you know, a little more enthusiastic, but the result was, well, less desirable. He's an ok guy, really, but just a tad quiet, probably cos I only knew him 10 minutes before we had to go on stage. Some people may ask how it felt like standing next to Joshua. Haha, it's normal la. He's afterall human too. Nothing really special. Quite honoured though, got a chance to do this. Appreciated the emcee job but I know we were extremely unprepared. We had the questions ready beforehand, but it was quite impromptu, had to butt in more questions to drag time. In the end, we ended early. Good thing Josh Chong had things to say as well. Hopefully, I'll be able to become an emcee again and do a much better job. I'm a more systematic person and I like things to go as planned. Yah..

Then in the afternoon, we watched the show. You guys should really drag your parents and friends along to watch this movie. I give it 1 and a half thumbs up. It made me cry at almost every scene in the later part of the movie. So touching, haha. Their acting's good too.

Then again, it's kinda weird interviewing them. It was so.. I don't know how to describe it. So.. weird. Like there was a gap between us. Cannot see through them. Although they were telling the school about themselves, I kinda sensed that there wasn't any openess. Duno la.. it's just stuck in my head and will be for quite some time..

2006-01-13T22:10:00.000+08:00

The first 2 weeks of school have been wonderful! Even though there's a lot of hw and cca takes up quite some time, I'm still quite satisfied with how much I've learnt in 2 weeks!! I'm still able to cope with my hw (at the moment) and the tests. I think the english paper was still the easiest. Don't know how I'll score though. The best thing is the you-know-what. Haha, yes, sue yee, turtle, wenying, meh, michelle and wei guo would probably know what it is about. I wonder what we'll be doing. YIPPEEEE!!!!! Ok, cos of the 'O's this year, I had to give up a lot of things. Sigh. Not easy k, but I really have to learn how to let go. Yup.

And I don't know why, but I always fall ill on friday. wadeva.
I'm sick and I dont know what else to blog. so, cya.

2006-01-01T16:28:00.000+08:00

Aww, I can't go for a birthday party again. Sigh. Sometimes I wonder if the birthday person gets more upset than the invited one when the latter is not able to make it. Let's see, there was a case where someone invited a lot of people but so few turned up. Another case is where someone invited a lot of people and almost all turned up. In the first case, obviously the birthday boy/girl is the one who will get soo upset. However, in the 2nd case, it's the people who are unable to make it that who will feel extremely disappointed. Haha, I don't think you understand what I'm talking about. Nvm..

The party's now and I'm stuck at home. Haha. Ok, know what, I'll make good use of the time and study for my geography test. See, I'm such a good girl. LOL. That reminds me, my chem notes are still with Joan, it's been 1 1/2 mths already!!! OH AND I STILL HAVEN'T DONE MY ART STUDIES. IM SO DEAD. Goodbye.

2005-12-29T18:51:00.000+08:00

Guess what? On the way home today, I noticed my earring sinking into the earlobe, because the earlobe was swollen. So I tried to take the earring out (btu it's still under a month after piercing) and I had to pry it apart. It was painful k, and it kept bleeding. I finally managed to get the earring out, after much blood and tissues and will power, and put in a earstick instead. It's not the first time that my earhole's bleeding. Sigh, hopefully, the hole will remain and it won't close up or get infected or bleed again or whatever. It's like, I pierced my right ear twice adn my left ear thrice already!! I don't think I want to go pierce again. The thing is, I don't have 5 earholes in total. I only have 2, one on each ear. The ones I pierced last time closed up. For some people who are wondering whether piercing on your old hole is painful? It's less painful than when you pierce on a 'clean' ear. Yup.

Matt messaged me this afternoon, asked if I can give my testimony this sat. Haha, I still have to think what I want to share. And give it to him by tomorrow. Yipes, it's so soon. It was supposed to be by today actually. Haha, inspiration, I need inspiration.

2005-12-28T21:17:00.000+08:00

Ok, I'm updating now. The FOTSies went to Sentosa today. Haha, had a slight burn on my shoulder. Hoo hoo. We were slacking, and slacking, and slacked even more. Haha, played frisbee on the beach. ( how holiday-ish is that?) It was quite fun la.. The highlight of the whole day was probably the time at Sakae Sushi, where we pigged out for 3 hrs!!! 3 hrs ok. No easy feat. Ha, and I still think the guy took 50 cents more from me. Sigh, whatever.

School is re-opening in 6 days. Ask Jin Zhe for details of hrs, minutes and seconds. That guy bugged me with it. Have you guys finished your homework yet? I only have 1 set of emath, 1 ew, a few more qns of physics and amath, THE CHINESE BOOK and my ART STUDIES!!! Jin Zhe probably has finished everything. Hey Jin Zhe, you should be so honoured that your name appeared 3 times in my post!

Ah, I'm tired now, and I have to go to school tomorrow. For.. guess what? Dental appointment. Aha. And it probably takes 10 min. So I pay 40 cents + 35 cents + 45 cents + 40 cents = $1.60 for transport just to go to school for 10 minutes when I'm actually supposed to have a scheduled appointment with my private dentist every 6 mths, which is a free 5 minutes walk from my house. What is the world coming to? And if I don't go for the school one, they have to report to MOH.

Taking it in my stride. Yay, facing each new day, like it is a new day, cos it is a new day and it will be a new day. Oh, rubbishing already. Nites, everyone.

2005-12-17T11:45:00.000+08:00

VELOCITY CONCERT - breaking the sound barrier

Date: Tuesday, 20th December 2005
Time: 5pm to 10pm
Venue: Zhenghua Square (Opp. Fajar LRT)
Admission fee: $5 per person. BUY 2 GET 1 FREE!

Outdoor gig featuring live band Pleroma and Surreal, and bands from the bukit panjang community. There's dance too! Kyra and Kiaros will be dancing! Yay!

If you guys wanna go, can tag at my blog, or give me a call k? I think you can purchase tickets on the day itself too.

2005-12-05T00:49:00.000+08:00

It's going to be a long journey ahead, I know it's not going to be an easy one but dependency and faith are very important. One must always remember that. Pray people! That's the key..

2005-12-03T12:09:00.000+08:00

Ooh, I just love my new blogskin. It's has such a calming effect.

I revived my old reading passion. When I was in primary school, it was a weekly ritual to arrive before 11.30am at the library doors ar Jurong East, eagerly anticipating the opening of the library doors, walking into its cool interiors, feeling the rush of cold air blowing onto my face. Taking in the 'library' smell while a tingle of excitement rushes down my spine. I looked around in excitement, preying on the books that I wanted to grab hold of.

Ok, those were the days (as if they were so long ago). As I progressed further in education (which means when I entered secondary school, what else then?), I had less time to visit the library, what more the one in Jurong, because it's so far away. My English deproved and oh wells, my grades were'nt good. I used to note down new vocabulary words and useful phrases for composition. Not anymore. Cos I'm such a lazy bum bum. Hee.

Anyway, my point is, I can now read without being sleepy, just like in primary school. Haha, so I can absorb the literary styles the writers use. I can still remember that a while ago, I couldn't even get past the first few chapters of a book before the due date! Ah, things are different now.

And talking about things being different, they are. Not only reading but others as well. Like, the way I look at people, the way I carry myself, the attitude towards certain circumstances. Everything's still in the process of changing, similar to a tedious re-programming of a robot, not that I'm comparing myself to one, sorta degrading. The complexities of an inferior complexion are hard to grasp, just take it as a phase which will pass just as any other phase would. Oh, I'm going out of a point already, but it doesn't really matter does it?

There are so many things that we can analyse about. But who will? It takes a huge amount of effort (on my part) to use my brains- remember, I'm a lazy bum bum, but I realised that we cannot do without this expenditure of effort. (is there such a thing?) Anyway, coming back to my point, in this modern society, at this time and age, critical thinking is prioritised and is vital in our everyday living. From looking at people (I don't mean judge, I mean observe) to political matters, thought is given before one speaks. How? Through analysing of course. Ah, the entry is getting boring. Shall just stop here.

p.s. Did you know that when you clasp both hands together, one thumb is over the other? Ok, I think everyone knows that. If the left thumb is over the right thumb, it means you're analytical. If the right thumb's over the left thumb, it means you're creative. Wonder how true that is...

2005-11-18T21:20:00.000+08:00

haha. i guess im infected too as well then. haha, by carolyn, jon quek and sarah. wonder if anyone else became super infectors too. haah.. so here goes.

5 weird facts about me:

1. I like to talk to myself or pretend that there's someone next to me whom I can talk to. (don't worry, I'm not schizo)

2. I'm a very sleepy person. If I think too much at one time, I tend to drift in and out of sleep. So you can imagine what it's like at school. Haha.

3. I can't seem to do anything very well. I can do lotsa things, but they are all of mediocre standard. I wonder why.. (sarcastic tone)

4. I like to make noise.

5. My left eye is higher than my right eye. It's true! But don't go round staring k? Haha.. Anyway, no one's face is exactly symmetrical.

Infecting Time:
1. Jin Zhe
2. Weini
3. Michele (if she ever sees this)
4. Euphe
5. Eunice

2005-10-18T22:27:00.000+08:00

Trust Him when dark doubts assail thee
Trust Him when they strength is small
Trust Him when to simply trust Him seems the hardest thing of all
Trust Him, He is ever faithful
Trust Him for His will is best
Trust Him, for the the heart of Jesus is the only place of rest

-Bennett-

Estha sent me this. So sweet of her.

2005-10-16T18:14:00.000+08:00

I'm ill. Again. It really gets on my nerves, being ill all the time. My head's throbbing and heavy, I''m warm all over. The constant sneezing makes my eyes water. There's this thing which won't go away. Sick. Don't feel like going to school tomorrow. But then again, when does nerdy gracy pon school? Getting papers back tomorrow. Fine. After school's there's CCA, I can't sing with a sore throat and a runny nose. I don't feel like doing anything now. Or even thinking for that matter of fact. I'm just blogging whatever comes to mind. I so dislike being ill.

My best friend is my Watsons' tissue paper. =.=

2005-10-13T22:14:00.000+08:00

I went out with my mum today. Haha, travelled a lot just to meet her at Bugis. At first, I went to Fajar to return the vcds. So decided to take lrt and mrt straight to Bugis. But then, when I reached Bukit Panjang, I realised that taking bus would be faster. So I got off the lrt and took the bus opposite plaza. Guess where it stopped. Causeway Point. Ok, so I took the bus in the wrong direction. Nevermind. I decided to take the mrt to Bugis. Ok, I was supposed to change train at City Hall but, instead of changing train, I got out of the station. Sigh, I was sleepy. Haha, then I had to get back in and take one more stop to Bugis. Well, I managed to reach my destination, after 2 hrs! So dumb.

Haha, I'm going to try my hand at making earrings! Don't know what will come out of it. Just wait and see. :)

2005-10-12T18:51:00.000+08:00

Why does it always have to be like that? I just can't seem to bring it across.

2005-10-11T22:07:00.000+08:00

Well, exams are over. Can't say that it's finally over. That sense of relief doesn't seem to washing over me. Is it because I didn't study hard enough? Proabably. But I studied whatever I could touch on. I think that's the best it could get then.

Enough with exams. I just don't feel like getting my papers back next week. It's going to be ____. Meanwhile, I have a few marking days. Hee hee. Which means I don't have to go to school till next mon! Whoo hoo..

I'm going to pack my room. I hope. Do stuff that I want to do. Quality time. Yups.

2005-10-06T18:50:00.000+08:00

Hey Wei Guo, I wonder if you'll ever see this. Anyway, I totally agree with you that we should cherish those around us. Who knows? There may be a time when they're not around anymore. Haha, so you should appreciate your mummy's nagging.. Lolx.

Just feel like blogging about this now.

2005-10-05T11:56:00.000+08:00

AHHhhh.. physics. Dumb paper too. I don't think it's difficult. It's just that I didn't study enough that's all. Sigh. Can't repeat the same mistake wif chem and emaths. And now I'm sick again. Embarrassing.. had to hold on to a bunch of tissue in the exam hall. Did u know that if u wanna go to the toilet, u have to go to the one behind the stage? Haha, it's quite funny. I thought where everyone was running to. Ok, now I figured it out.

Gambate for chem!!

2005-10-04T22:46:00.000+08:00

Ooh, I just had 2 killer papers today. Geog and Amaths. Sigh, that marianne chong book is super thick, didn't make the effort to memorise much. (unlike isaac. can't believe he's so passsionate about geog, haha) Ended up as my worst geog paper ever. And amaths? I didn't brush up on my functions, anyhow sub here sub there. Hopefully, it's correct. HOPEfully. Haha. Thanks to all those who have been praying for me, really appreciate it. :) Still have physics, emaths, chinese and chem left. Whoo. Not that heavy. Only that chem, it's equivalent to geog. Ok, maybe 4/5 of geog. Still, it's madness. And because of chem, I'm not playing for web this sat. Kind of a lame excuse though. Although I really wanted to play cos it's my first time with Jason. Well, I guess there will be other opportunities; a long time later. After this month, I won't be playing till dec, unless I swap wif someone. Yup.. long break.

Ok, i think i better go study my physics. Still have to memorise definitions and formulas. Cannot give up now! Oh, and guess what, I'm planning to study and make notes for 'o's next year. Talk about being kiasu..

2005-10-04T16:50:00.000+08:00

I don't know wad's wrong wif blogger. it's so weird. mebe it's juz my com.

Anyway, I'm so so grateful for having supportive friends! Yay, u guys rock!

2005-09-25T10:36:00.000+08:00

George Muller - Man of Faith

When George was in his childhood and youth, he did not take God seriously although he was studying to become a Lutheran minister. Even after repenting, he still went back to his old ways of cheating and lying. It was only until he went for a prayer meeting at someone's house did he feel accepted and turned away from his ways.

From then onwards, he wanted to live his life for God. He started preaching at various churches. He also received an invitation to become a missionary. That seemed to be 'the ultimate goal' for George. However, that was not what God had intended for him at that time. What God wanted George to do was to establish orphanages and finally, an institution which will reach people from all over the world, giving out bibles.

George gave up the offer of having a job which provides a stable income but instead, he depended solely on God to provide for his needs. Especially for the orphanages, he never once asked for money from man but looked to God to supply him with ample food and money in order to sustain the children. Throughout the years, God never failed to bring in the money on time.

Today, I feel that we need to have that same amount of faith. It's not easy to entirely depend on God, neither is it wise to work along the ways of this world.

"Think not that I have the gift of faith which is mentioned along with 'the gifts of healing', 'the working of miracles', and that on that account I am able to trust in God. If I were only one moment left by myself my faith would utterly fail. It is not true that my faith is that gift of faith. It is the same-self faith which is found in every believer for little by little it has been increasing for the last six and twenty years."

George's faith in God was extraordinary, but not impossible. There are times when we face trials and setbacks and we feel that there's absolutely no way out, we slip in our faith. However, "the greater the difficulty, the easier for faith". If the problem that we are facing may prove to be challenging, surrendering it to God and seeing how He can make things right again encourages us to take that leap in our faith journey.

The thing that struck me most was the fact that God never changes. About 150 years ago, George depended on prayer and the bible to carry out God's plan. His encouragement and peace came from God alone. Now, in 2005, we still have to get on our knees and pray, read the bible to know more about God and His word for us and He still answers prayers just like He did 150 years ago. Purely through prayer and reading the bible, we are able to have an intimate relationship with the King of the universe. How great is that? However, for many people, they have missed out on this wonderful opportunity. God is looking for faithful men and women, but who will remain faithful?

George Muller was a man of faith, surrendering his whole life to God and allowing Him to work in his life, thus blessing him with abundant joy and satisfaction. I'm very encouraged by the way George lives his life. If God had such a distinct plan in his life, I'm sure He also has one for mine.

2005-09-17T22:30:00.000+08:00

I just can't seem to study. And Jin Zhe, yes, Jin Zhe, has been studying soo much already. Sigh, cannot catch up. I think my grades are dropping. Not tremendously, but well, it's not as good as before. So lazy la.. Have to really buck up for exams, which is like in 12 days. Ahh...

Oh, and Galvin's songs are really nice. (Im listening to one of them now.) Ok, that's so out of point. But Galvs, if you happen to read this, press on for Him! Although circumstances may seem bleak, He'll always be there! Haha, I know u know that la.. Heehee..

2005-09-14T22:25:00.000+08:00

Ooh, i just feel so blessed. So blessed, so blessed. Tee hee. Every day I wake up, it's just a fresh start. There are so many things to look foward to, so many things to see. And God's blessings overflow like anything. Remember the song 'One Day'? It goes.. "So blessed, I can't contain it, so much I gotta give it away..." Yup, that's how I feel now.

And "I [we] believe, it is now.." This Sunday's rally is definitely going to be THE event. So, do go. K? (And if you are reading this, I really hope that you would go. I do want to see you there. =))

Exams are coming, I haven't started my revision (or should I say, studies). Lol. Yes, I better start soon.... Studying has it's fun side too... Haha..

Crossroads

The clock's ticking
The time's a wasting
Things are changing
But He's still waiting

It's been a long long time
Since the beginning
But He's so patient
Still waiting for me

Crossroads
When will we ever meet
Crossroads
When will I finally see
Crossroads
I need to look for Him
Crossroads
There He is

Hope is something that you need
For a future to spend with Him
Thank goodness I don't need to plead
It all just comes, naturally

2005-09-13T22:02:00.000+08:00

Haha, I've done a new layout again. Didn't really like my previous one, what with the extra small typing space fo the tag board. This one isn't much better either, you have to type by faith. :)

Oh wells, sometimes, things don't go the way you want it to go, but you know what? God has a better plan. He will show you what it is in due time and everything will fall into place. Trust Him. Also, I'm really blessed by the little things that have happened this week. Stuff that have been said, the actions taken, care.

Thank you for opening the doors for me. (:

Prayer points:
+ For friends to be able to make it for this Sunday's rally. (Have you given your apple and CD?)
+ FOTS

Remember, when we work, we work. When we pray, God works!

2005-09-13T21:51:00.000+08:00

2005-09-04T09:49:00.000+08:00

Ok, I finally changed me blog layout. But it's not nice. The words are big. And the tag board thingy is super small. Anyone knows how to make it right? Haha..

I think I have the same problem as Carolyn! I know what I want to blog about beforehand but when I blog, everything's gone. Haha.. ok, I'll probably update this some other time when there's something good to blog about. For now....

2005-07-11T22:57:00.000+08:00

Beauty is skin-deep (opposition) – focus on inner beauty

According to Oxford dictionary

Beauty: combination of qualities giving pleasure to the sight and other senses or to the mind

Roget's New Millennium™ Thesaurus, First Edition (v 1.1.1)

Skin deep: superficial

+ Beauty is not only skin-deep, but exists within as well.

ð Inner beauty
- ‘Giving pleasure to the mind’: appeal to people’s emotions
- What inner beauty can be: patience, kindness, gentleness, self-control

+ Comparison between an ugly person with good character traits vs. a beautiful person with a nasty personality.

Would you refer to the person as beautiful or drop-dead gorgeous? (Should be the latter)

Eg. The story of Beauty and the Beast.

- In what way was she beautiful? She didn’t mind how the beast looked and accepted him just the way he was. That is the beauty of grace. And that was probably why she was called Beauty.
- Also, compared to her step sisters, she was the kindest of them.

Tie up: My stand is that beauty does not only appear on the surface but dwells deep down inside as well. We should not judge a book by its cover but flip it open to read its content. A beautiful person does not have to be pleasant looking in order to be labelled as ‘beautiful’.

That was my research for my class debate tomorrow. Haha, it's not a very strong argument, but ok, whatever..

Did you know that reading the bible is very exciting? Prayer is exciting too! This path that I'm taking may not be an easy one, but it's definitely fulfilling. Fill that void in your heart today. Don't wait too long. Don't wait until the gap becomes too big and you feel like you're falling away. Come back to Him today.

Hee hee, this is such a random post, pardon me. Oh! I'm going to be emcee for my school's 45th anni. So exciting! Haha, I've waited so long to be an emcee. Do you think it's part of His plan for me? Because I wasn't supposed to be in the whole emcee fanfare in the first place.

Oh, and I was chatting with someone on msn yesterday and the person was telling me, which side do you wan to show? What the person meant was, would you like others to see your positive self and be an encouragement to others? Or be pessimistic all the time? Well, it spoke to me a lot and now I know what kind of image I want to reflect on others. Yup, yup..

2005-07-06T22:12:00.000+08:00

Why?- Nicole Nordeman

We rode into town the other day, just me and my Daddy.
He said I'd finally reached that age, and I could ride next to him on a horse that of course was not quite as wide.
We heard a crowd of people shouting and so we stopped to find out why.
There was that man that my dad said he loved, but today there was fear in his eyes.

So I said Daddy why are they screaming?
Why are the faces of some of them beaming?
Why is he dressed in that bright purple robe?
I bet that crown hurts him more than he shows.
Daddy please can't you do something?
He looks as if he's going to cry.
You said he is stronger than all of those guys.
Daddy please tell me why, why does everyone want him to die?

Later that day the sky grew cloudy and daddy said I should go inside.
Somehow he knew things would get stormy, boy was he right.
But I could not keep from wondering if there was something that he had to hide.
So after he left I had to find out, I was not afraid of getting lost.
So I followed the crowds to a hill where I knew men had been killed.
And I heard a voice come from a cross:

And it said : Father why are they screaming?
Why are the faces of some of them beaming?
Why are they casting their lots for my clothes??
This crown of thorns hurts me much more than it shows, Father please can't you do something? I know that you must hear my cry.
I thought I could handle a cross of this size, Father remind me why, why does everyone want me to die.
When will I understand why?

My precious Son, I hear them screaming.
I'm watching the face of the enemy beaming but soon I will clothe you in robes of my own. Jesus this hurts me more than you know.
But this dark hour I must do nothing.
Though I've heard your unbearable cry-the power in your blood destroys all the lies, soon you'll see past their unmerciful eyes.
Look there below see the child trembling by her father's side.
Now I can tell you why, she is why you must die.

Jesus died for you and me. He gave us a new identity in Christ.

"And this is the testimony: God has given us eternal life, and this life is in his Son. He who has the Son of has life; he who does not have the Son of God does not have life."

1 John 5:11, 12

Come to the Father today. Don't miss out on the joy that you are able to receive each and everyday. No more lonliness, no more empty lives. Just lives that are full, and rich with the goodness of our Lord. Everything that burdens you, leave it all to Him, for He will take care of you. Our God is an awesome God.

2005-06-27T19:19:00.000+08:00

The trip was really good. Learnt many things and realised how good God really is. There were so many blessings along the way and I'm really thankful for that. Well, it was great exposure and certainly did all of us much good.

Last night, I had the post holiday- pre school syndrome. I didn't want to pack my bag for school. Haha, but I managed to fit right back into my routine. So, praise God for that!

There isn't much to blog about now but anyway, tomorrow's Women of Valour (Mu Gui Ying). Haha, so exciting, we're going to dress up and have fun! We end school early and start school late the next day. The school's celebrating Youth Day on fri (heard there's english oral though..) and mon is a holiday! Whoopee.. Hehehe... Nice nice days ahead..

2005-06-07T18:17:00.000+08:00

All Of My Days

Proclaim Your awesome power
Tell of mighty deeds
Declare Your future kingdom
Of everlasting peace
And my eyes they look unto You always
And I am captured by Your Majesty

All of my days
I will sing of Your greatness
All of my days
I will sing of Your grace
All of my days
I will tell of Your wondrous love
Your love in my life
Your love

All Your works will praise You
Your children bless Your name
We speak of all Your goodness
We walk in fields of grace
And my eyes they look unto You always
And I am captured by Your majesty

So true. There are so many things to praise God for, it will be never-ending. Our God is so big. There is nothing He cannot do. It is impossible to fathom what else He will do in our lives, what His final plan for us is. We can only guess bits and pieces of it, but that's only a small part of the whole picture! Wow..isn't He wonderful. We should be joyful and celebrate! For even when times are rough, He will be there with us, to bring us through. And yes, He has remained faithful. Now, are we going to be faithful and hang on as well? I'm sure we are. it's probably a win-win situation anyway. Haha..

I passed my physics test (67%)!! Whoohooo...

2005-06-01T15:07:00.000+08:00

"But may the righteous be glad and rejoice before God; may they be happy and joyful."
Psalm 68:3

We tend to often seek for assurance. For example, whenever we mess up, the assurance that we are looking for might sometimes be for someone to tell us that everything's going to be alright. Other times, the assurance is to be able to fit in well with our peers. But you know something, we don't have to search for assurance, it's right in front of us! The assurance of God's abiding love overwrites everything else. This is the assurance that we can find rest in.

Happiness and joy are two different things. Happiness has to do with a
circumstance; joy has to do with an assurance. That's why this verse says the
righteous will be made both happy and joyful, rejoicing not only in the moment
but in their standing before God.

Eg.
Happiness: Butterfly sitting on your shoulder, enjoying a great dinner.
Joy: When your friend comes to know the Saviour, you internalize the fact
that God's love is based on his character and not your behaviour.

Luci Swindoll

.: You can say that happiness is temporary but joy is everlasting.

Be joyful every single day because you know that there's a God whom you can place your trust in. Hang on. Though times may be rough, he will always be there for you. Thank You Lord for your wonderful love and Your gift of freedom.

2005-05-28T21:56:00.000+08:00

When you do it to the least of these
Jesus sees, Jesus sees

When you help your mother
With your little baby brother
When you share your favourite toy
When you give your pennies
To those who don't have any
Jesus sees, Jesus sees

When you do it to the least of these
Jesus sees, Jesus sees

When you help a widow
Or an orphan who is little
Then your heart will be filled with joy
When you share your bread
And the hungry ones are fed
Jesus sees, Jesus sees

When you do it to the least of these
Jesus sees, Jesus sees

And no one else is looking
And no one seems to care
He is there with you and me
Jesus sees

When you do it to the least of these
Jesus sees, Jesus sees

This is actually a song from Sunbeam but well, it kinda spoke to me. Sometimes, no matter how hard I try, I'm unable to please everyone around me. Is it so difficult to get into a person's gd books or should I rephrase it, is it easy to get into someone's bad books? Well, maybe gaining acceptance from others is important, but not to the extent of going against your own principles or getting way out of your comfort zone. I've tried that before and guess what? It doesn't work. Cos I was simply not being myself. It was only after a while that I came to realise how important that you are your own personality and you don't 'fake' your identity. So now, I'm just being me, and I'm trying hard to be as nice as I can be, even though I'm still unable to please everyone. But I'm trying my best and Jesus sees.. Oh well, in the end, I'm accountable to God, not man.

Today we had a prayer walk and I saw something extraodinary. Along the canal were many trees but only one of them was full of brown leaves. The rest around it all had green leaves. Weird. Come to think of it, if the leaves are brown, wouldn't they have dropped off the tree already? Why are still intact? Hmmm... Well, I saw a few ah pehs sitting alone. Do you think that's a sign of loneliness and rejection? Do you think that they have no purpose in life and are idling away? Do you think they should find a purpose in life? Yes! I believe so and I have faith that God will do something in the neighbourhood.

Ask Him for wisdom in whatever you do. It is one of the best gifts you can receive from Him. I really want to trust in Him for every step I take cos I know that I cannot do it on my own. Everything is in His control. Let Your will be done Lord, come take over.

2005-05-23T21:18:00.000+08:00

Ok, so we went to town today. Well, it was supposed to only be the 3 of us but surprise! 3 more came along...haha, it was really fun. And.. *drum roll*, I pierced my ears again! Haha, my mum actually didn't allow, thought I'd get a scolding when I reached home but oh well, she didn't even nag. That's great! Hopefully, I won't get an infection again. Aiyo.. I really want to blog about something different.. I need inspiration! Haha..

2005-05-20T21:01:00.000+08:00

We had a disc profiling course today and I'm C/S!! Whoppee.. it's actually quite accurate.

C: conservative, calculating, low-keyed, stable, dependent, cautious, traditional, neat, systematic, accurate, tactful, diplomatic.

Motivated by: standards of high quality, limited social interaction (doesn't make much sense), detailed tasks, logical organisation of information.

Ideal environment should include: tasks and projects that can be followed through to completion, specialized or technical tasks, practical work procedures and routines, few conflicts and arguments, instructions and reassurance that I am doing what is expected of me.

This is defintely me! Ok, not exactly but yah...somewhere there. I'm probably a precisionist.

Anyway, I'm currently reading this book 'Boy meets Girl' by Joshua Harris. Ok, so I came to this part about how both genders should 'conform' to their own assigned roles and not try to be the opposite gender. The part about what the man's roles were.. well, they were everything a man is expected of doing. But, if you look at our society nowadays, how many men/guys are able to be like that and be gentlemen??!! Few. Take for example, the cheering com. If guys are the one that are to lead, why are the girls the ones taking charge and the guys, slacking?? Come on guys, seriously, if you all are going to get married one day, hopefully your wife will be married to someone who is capable of supporting the family. Right?? Ok, Im talking about guys in general, although there are some who are really 'The Good Guy' type. Jus thinking that if this ungentlemenliness goes on.. what would happen?

2005-05-18T19:06:00.000+08:00

Im tired. We were at Lot 1 for about more than 1.5 hrs! Haha, eating at mac, going to the library and to the DIY shop. Thanks Joan, for showing me the books and the wires.. Heehee.. Haaa.. I'm tired. So well, I got to know the girls a little better, that's great and we're going to town on Monday! Yippee.. yah, they're giving me ,this country bumpkin, an extreme makeover or something and Weini's so excited about it. Haha..

Oh, and guessed what? I told Ms Kong I wanted to try out for the emcee auditions. Haha, don't know if I can make it.. I thought I would be shy and all but it seems that I'm really excited about it this time. After seeing Lye Ee, Daryl they all go up on stage, it's like it's kinda fun. Hee hee..

Ok, ok. Blogging about my everday routines is boring. Shall blog something more in depth the next time. Wait till my brains are in work mode first.

2005-05-17T17:53:00.000+08:00

Whoa, today was a crazy day. All that screaming. Haha, right, Liwen and Yin Lin? Da siao and high people of the day. We had cheering com practice. Well, at least the attendance was better than yesterday's. Yay, thanks for staying back! Tmr must stay back again k? Haha. And the soccer guys.. Whoppee, you all were great! Haha, P2 rox. Michele, you shld have been with us, going all crazy. Heehee..

Anyway, when we were on the way home at the lrt station, there was this guy that came up wif these few booklets entitled 'Exams Me' or something like that. Then I was like, hey, who are these people, where are they from? I didn't take the booklets from him, neither did the rest. When I turned my head back, I saw this lady with a group of girls. She was holding a bible! Haha, so they were from church and were doing street E! How cool is that. Aiyah, I wished i had taken the booklets, so at least he could have a chance to talk to my friends. Whoo..

2005-05-16T22:52:00.000+08:00

Last night, we went to Geylang for dinner. Haha. Geylang is definitely "geylang-ish", with it's bright lights, foreigners, run down flats and coffee shops. It seems like a place which I would never want to step into. However, when we reached High Point (the place where we were going to eat), as I walked through the gates and into the place, this peacfulness washed over me. It's really weird. The whole area was 7 acres big cos it was some old school or sumting. When I was walking past the classrooms that we were locked up, it looked as it the place might be haunted cos it was quite dark but I felt really peaceful. Have you ever experienced that kind of peacfulness before? Like when everything around you seems bleak, you are not afraid. The experience was somehow different and I couldn't quite place it at that time.

While we were ordering our food, I happened to look at the back of the menu and it was about why the restaurant is named 'Goshen'. Goshen is actually the name of the place which Joseph set aside for his family. (Joeseph and his colourful coat). A place of hope. So it has a Christian background. That explained the peacefulness in the place. It was as if the Lord's presence was with us. So calm, serene. I guess, this is how it feels to be rested in the Lord. How it feels to really have peace within.

None of the others mentioned about having the same experience. Oh well, that's interesting.

Going back to Saturday morning, we had the class. Haha, I think I'll benefit from it in the long run, that is if I can go. So pls pray that my mum will allow. Cos it'll be good? Right? The brain gym thing was something new..haha.. Oh, and are we supposed to memorise 12 verses a week? Ooh..

2005-05-12T10:44:00.000+08:00

Your grace is sufficient for me
Your strength is made perfect
When I am weak
All that I cling to
I lay at Your feet
Your grace is sufficient for me

Johnny reminded me about this song. So timely. Isn't it true that His grace is sufficient for us? Everyday, we face trials, disappointments, but He is always there for us, to bring us through it. I feel that everyday is a struggle. Probably cos it was exam time. Now that exams are over, what would it be for me? More time to to crap? I hope not. Sometimes, I feel that my life is an utter waste and my existence is redundant. But somehow, I know that He has a plan for me, to use me no matter how lousy I am. He loves me much mroe than I love myself. So, isn't that grace? Grace for us to live each and everyday for Him. If He hasn't given up on me, I shouldn't give up on Him either. Right? Yes. (Rhetorical question?) Er....

You will see me through. Give me wisdom-what to do. It's all in Your hands.

Shephard of my soul. I give You full control.

2005-05-01T17:37:00.000+08:00

How do you define stress?

Does stress come when you're faced with a load of homework and you know you can't finish it? Or is it when you know you can't cope with a subject cos you don't understand a thing? Or maybe, the hectic studying schedule doesnt fit into your life and you're having a hard time adapting?. So many things, yet so little time.

How to you deal with stress?

I remembered there was this assembly talk bout stress management. One of the examples was to imagine that you're a balloon. Whenever you take in a deep breath, pretend that you're expanding. Breath, expand, breath, expand. Then 'pop!' (breathe out), all your stress is let out.. Haha, it's a little lame. But try it, it works. Cos you're psycho-ing yourself. Haha. Or you can juz scream into your pillow.

For me, throughout this exams period, I already missed 2 days of devotion. Yah.. and I could sense that I was drifting away. However, before y'dae service, I made it a point to open my bible and read it. Yups, and things and getting better now, if you know what I mean. It's back! Haha.. Yay!

Give them all to Jesus

Stress out!

2005-04-22T23:06:00.000+08:00

The long-awaited event of the year had finally arrived. Sports Meet! Whee* Too bad, we weren't in the house that we wanted to be in. Ended up in a 'loser' house. Sigh. Anyway, today's 4x400 was so great. The run seemed so easy and relaxing. Quite hard to believe right? And when we got 2nd, it's was like wow. I didn't really expect us to win but you know what? God was at work, haha.

It's funny how He works into the very little details of our lives. We don't really think about it and take it for granted but it's the grace of God. Haha, He's really amusing.

Delight in the purpose behind the joy. This weekend will be a great one for me, packed with activities. But what is the actual purpose? Keyboard training, webbers meeting, CG talk, mission interview, dance prac.. all these are meaningless if there is no purpose. What then, you might ask, is the purpose? Well..think about it..haha..

Exams are coming!! Ahh!! I have to put in a lot of effort this time round. I'm slacking, and I don't like the feeling of not being able to grasp the concepts properly. Sigh.. Study study study!!

*As usual, my entry is disorganised. =.='''

2005-04-10T17:02:00.000+08:00

"For nothing is impossible with God."
Luke 1:37

I was doing my morning devotion and the verse of the day was Luke 1:37. It was so coincidental that today we were going out to 'practise'. Nothing is impossible with God. We have to trust Him to bring people to us, for us to talk to. Hmm..maybe this is the first time, so we didn't really get to talk in depth. But at least, we managed to invite them to church. After listening to what the others shared, it seems that my experience wasn't as exciting. But in any case, I learnt a few things and oh well, it'll slowly come along.

The first girl that Mashie and I met was Ziwei. Like in 'My Fair Princess'..Ziwei. Haha..ok. She was quite ok, responsive, but Mash said she was kind of erm, nervous? Well, we invited her for sunbeam. So..hopefully, she'll come down. Oh, then we talked to this smoker guy. And in the end asked him for directions to...the toystore. =.='''. Okay, we didn't reali get to talk to him. Outside Macs, we saw this little girl sitting by herself. So went up to her. She was really responsive and even asked us questions. However, we didn't talk for long as well. We were walking back from Fajar when we met this group of boys. Erm, asked for directions to Fajar shopping centre (that was seriously funny cos we came from there). They didn't want to tell us their names though. Talk about being mysterious. And the last lady we met was the most amazing one. She is actually our friend's friend's mum. Haha, so coincidental. So we talked to her as we walked back. Yup, invited her children to church too. Hmm..i wished there was more to it though. But, thank God! In all circumstances. Yup. It's better than nothing. Right?

In His time

In His time, in His time
He makes all things beautiful in His time
Lord, please show me everyday
As You're teaching me Your way
That You do just what You say
In Your time

In Your time, in Your time
You make all things beautiful in Your time
Lord, my life to You I bring
May each song I have to sing
Be to You a lovely thing, in You time

This song kept coming back to me again and again. Sometimes, I really want something to happen immediately. But I know that now's not the time. Like kairos, it's God's time. He'll make all things good in His own timing. What's the point of banging your head around only to find out that a better plan awaits you, if only you are patient and will wait. There's always temptation that lurks around, stay away from it. Lord, keep me away from temptations! Grant me patience, Lord. Show me Your ways. I don't want to follow my own ways, because I know I'll probably go in the wrong direction. Ah, internal struggles again??

2005-03-26T21:47:00.000+08:00

Jesus loves me this I know

For the bible tells me so

Little ones to Him belong

They are weak but He is strong

Hallelujah, hallelu..

Hallelujah, hallelujah

Today's service was awesome. Ps Dave was sooo funny. I remembered that before I went for the Generation Conference, I prayed that today would be different. And it was very different indeed. One point that Ps Dave pointed out was about God loving you. God is with you always. He will never ever forsake you. God loves me! It was emphasised over and over again. I got to see things from a different perspective. Now, whenever I sing 'Jesus You are my best friend', I can sing what I mean, and not sing for the sake of singing. It's totally not the same anymore. Renewal, change... Yup, God woks big time.. Prayer works. It really really works.

Anyway, Alvin just called...from Australia!! Haha, that guy.. Thks anyway, thought you were just joking you noe.. Alvin ah, maybe the Australia side don't let you see my blog.. Haha.. I don't think it's set to private..

2005-03-25T22:58:00.000+08:00

The Miracle Box

It's a movie about how 2 people met and fell in love. The guy had leukemia before and after his marriage, it acts up again and he passed away. His wife, left alone to fight the SARS epidemic, succumbed to the virus and died too. However, throughout their marriage, they were dependent on God and surrended everything to Him. In the last scene, when they met again, the guy was waiting for her, the rainbow above him. I realised that in our Christian life, God is also waiting for us to embrace Him with open arms. The rainbow symbolises God's promises.. It was so significant for me.

While watching the last part, I kept tearing. I mean, it's very unlike me to cry because of a movie. Like, it's just a show.. But this one is different. It will make an impact on your life. When Pastor Poh Ham was speaking, I felt led to pray for the people who were there. Yah, so got some of the other youths to start praying as well. If we want something to happen, we have to pray. And when I was praying, I teared again. Today was realli special. Haha.. In the end, there were 20+ salvations! Praise the Lord! Yay! And then I teared again...

Well, I think I'm ready for tomorrow's conference. I feel that we shouldn't go for service unprepared. If not, nothing will come out of it. Prepare your hearts to meet the Lord tomorrow. Yup, don't go with your eyes closed, ears sealed and hearts hardened.

At the end of the movie, when people were streaming out of the sanctuary, Ps Poh Ham kept emphasising that those people who have not received the Lord yet, don't leave the sanctuary so soon. They were all walking past me, old, people, middle-aged people, children... Suddenly, a song came to me..

People need the Lord

Everyday they pass me by

I can see it in their eyes

Empty people filled with care

Headed who knows where

On they go through private pain

Living fear to fear

Laughter hides their silent cries

Only Jesus hears

Chorus:

People need the Lord

People need the Lord

At the end of broken dreams

He's the open door

People need the Lord

People need the Lord

When will they realize

People need the Lord

We are called to take His light

To a world where wrong seems right

What could be too great a cost for

Sharing life with one who's lost

Through His love our hearts can feel

All the grief they bear

They must hear the words of life

Only we can share

If you would like to catch the movie (Cantonese version), come down to Covenant Evangelical Free Church (10 Jelapang Road), this Sunday at 6.45 pm. Tickets are free!

2005-03-24T21:25:00.000+08:00

"Rejoice greatly, O Daughter of Zion... See your king come to you, righteousness and having salvation, gentle and riding on a donkey."
Zechariah 9:9

I was doing my devotion this morning. It was quite surprising to see this verse appear when the topic was on friendship.

"When Jesus came into Jerusalem, the people joyfully waved palm branches and covered his colt's path with their own coats...

...How awesome it is to imagine yourself in the very presence of God! Giving yourself completely in submission to him. Our heartfelt praise is God's due for his goodness to us. Worshiping him binds us intimately to his heart."

The next time you're standing in Grace Sanctuary, worship Him like never before. Give yourself completely in submission to Him. Whatever that is on your mind, leave it to God. For he will make a way out of it. Concentrate fully on worshipping Him!. Sometimes, during worship, we get really distracted or self-conscious. Like, is that person looking at me? Or, oh no, i still have a pile of homework waiting for me! Leave all these aside, focus on Him. Come back to the heart of worship.

This Saturday would be the Generation conference. It's from 2.50pm to 6pm. Can't wait! I'm really expecting something big to happen, changes, revival. Yup, and a deeper understanding of God and experience his ever-flowing, unlimited love. Right, sat quick come!

2005-03-19T20:03:00.000+08:00

Wow, today was a super long day. Played the keyboard whole day long, tiring. I just don't know why, but I got nervous soo many times. Haha, quite funny. Maybe becuase of my nervousness, I 'm so tired now. Haha, a little illogical. Oh.. Weini came today. Haha, but the sermon a little chim for her. Hopefully, the speaker next week will be able to speak in simpler terms. And yes! It's the generation conference! Haha, can't wait. I'm tired..no more brain juice. Haha..

2005-03-15T22:14:00.000+08:00

I don't know if I did the right thing. Seems to me like i did the wrong thing again. I really have to learn to care about other people's feelings and stop to check if I'm doing the right thing. Lately, I've just been banging my head around, blindly looking for a way out. Well, one day, I'll know where I've gone wrong, hopefully. Or what the right way is.

It's wondeRfuL, so wondeRfuL!

2005-03-10T23:06:00.000+08:00

We had Geography lesson today and Mrs Tan showed us this video clip on volcanoes, plate techtonics, the Earth's crust..blah blah.. Through this, we can see that God's creation is soo marvellous. Well, I for one get easily astounded by Nature. Because it is soo beauiful. Hmm, have you ever stood at a high altitude and looked out on a vast piece of land? That time, I went to Japan and we went up this really high tower. From there, we could see this huge land mass and a bit of water. If you look far out, you can feel that the country you are in is just one tiny part of the Earth's surface. The magnitude of these stuff really makes me wonder how great God really is.

My God is so big. So strong and so mighty. There's nothing my God cannot do.

Another of my favourite things to look at are clouds. Just lift your head up and you'll be able to witness the movement of those, fluffy, cotten-woolly thingies. Haha, it's really, really beautiful. Haha..so nice..

God made all these!

Amazing love

2005-03-09T17:30:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, we often wonder where God is in our lives. Is He really there? Yes, he is! I did this topic in my devotion book and it mentioned that we don't have to keep asking God's presence to be with us, because God IS with us, we just have to affirm it. Cool rite? Well, I can sense that the Lord is working evidently in my life. It's just PDA after PDA after PDA. But, I always don't know how to continue. It's like their reaction is, "Ok..". And that's it. So, I think, it's better to concentrate on one only.

Do you know that there are many different ways to evangelise to your friends? During the Rev-up class, Matt showed us how to evangelise to a blind person. That was a very creative way. God gave me a terrific idea on how to evangelise to some people. And I think it's simply great! Haha.. [not very convenient to share it here though =)]. My class will be doing this CME project on religion. I can't wait! It's going to be super exciting, working with a bunch of great people. Haha..

God has certainly blessed me with a lot, a lot of wonderful things. I just have to open my eyes and look around. Wooh! Yay!! Remember the new song we sang at youth service last week? It kinda got stuck in my head. Haha..

Blessed be Your name in the land that is plentiful
"Yay!" to God; comfortable environment, all needs provided for
Where you streams of abundance flow
Plenty of love, joy, peace, etc!
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be Your name when I'm found in the desert place
No water, where everything is dry and dying
Though I walk through the wilderness
No food, no shelter, people are lost

Every blessing You pour out I'll turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in Lord
When times are bad
Still I will say

Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be the name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name
Splendid name!

Blessed be Your name when the Sun's shining down on me
When everything seems to be going right; bright and cheery
When the world's all 'as it should be'
No crime, make peace- no war
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be Your name on the road marked with suffering
When Christ died on the cross for us/ difficulties in our Christian life
Thought there's pain in the offering
Difficult to sacrifice, not willing to die & nto ready to live
Blesed be Your name

You give and take away
Give away materialistic things in exchange for other wonderful things!
You give and take away
My heart will choose to say
I will make my stand and say "Yay!"
Lord blessed be Your name

Yup..this is how i interpreted the song..oh well.. haha. Yup, g2g ..whahah..=)

Mugg, mugg, mugg

2005-03-07T18:41:00.000+08:00

Just felt like blogging what Mark shared with me. It's nothing personal..so..dun worry.

How do you study?
- Read the chapter before class starts
- Pay full attention during lessons
- Go home do homework and notes. Use as many colours as you can.
- At the end of every week, revise through your notes
- For maths, just practice. Yup..practice makes perfect.
- Do not eat smarties. It's fake. (ok..i think i prefer m&ms..haha)
- Pray.

You might think..ya.. i know all these already. Why are you telling me again? Well, did you know that by doing your best in your studies, you're submitting to authorities (your teachers), as well as obeying God? Wow. Killing two birds with a stone. Cool rite. Not onli that, you'll be able to manage your time and school work better also! Haha.. thks for sharing Mark.

I don't wish for my blog to be like so negative and crappy. Like, oh, todae's was a horrible day, got scolded..etc. Not v encouraging rite. Ya, to me, a blog is more like a form of communication, to encourage others, to find out more about what's happening in someone's life. Yup..i don't think it's a waste of time as long as you dun blog abt crappy stuff.

Blessed be the name of the Lord

2005-03-06T23:14:00.000+08:00

Blessed be Your name in the land that is plentiful
Where Your streams of abundance flow
Blessed be Your name
And blessed be Your name when I'm found in the desert place
Though I walk through the wilderness
Blessed be your name

Every blessing You pour out I'll turn back to praise
And when the darkness closes in Lord
Still I will say

Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name

Blessed be Your name when the suns shining down on me
When the world is all as it should be
Blessed be Your name
And blessed be Your name on the road marked with suffering
Though there's pain in the offering
Blessed be Your name

You give and take away
You give and take away
My heart will choose to say
Lord, blessed be Your name

Am I..?

2005-03-06T22:59:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, i find i'm too..erm suspicious. like i jump to conclusions reali quickly. for example on saturday, i thought these 2 ppl were like having other motives but when everything was clarified, they weren't what I thought they were. Ok, it sounds complicated but..anyway.. I think i reali have to change how i look at others.

hmm.. Huai Tze was preaching bout submission on sat. during his last point (why should i submit), this song came to my mind.

Hide me now, under Your wings
Cover me, within Your mighty hand..

He was saying that when we obey, we are protected, covered up. So, if we hide obey, we are able to "hide under His wings", and be covered. So cool rite? Woo!

Huai Tze also touched on submitting to governing authorities. I know there are a few teachers whom I don't reali like a lot. But i'm trying to love them..and to do their homework joyfully. Haha.. in the end, the one tt benefits from the homework is me, nt them.

Yesterday was really funny. Had a good time at Teck Liang's party. I guess communication is really impt to be able to get to know sumone better (duh =.=) Sigh..im crapping already. Hopefully my other entries wun be so..'touch and go' kind of thing..

im updating..

2005-03-04T22:14:00.001+08:00

haha, im finally updating. but wait till i get a proper subject b4 i update properly k? haha..stick in there people! im reali busy nowadays.. sigh. so many things on. esp this wk. anyway, i clocked 5 hrs of CIP at the sch library!! haha..and i got a new PE t-shirt which isnt faded, small and thin! haha..can wear tmr for cip..

Kelvin: thks soooo much for helping get dis up. and even linking and putting up the tag board. thks for making the time and effort!! u go bro.. haha.. =)

im updating..

2005-03-04T22:14:00.000+08:00

ok, i reali duno wad to update abt. wait till i get a proper topic k.

Kelvin: thank you soooo much for helping mi get the layout out (again and again) and even linking and the tag board.. wooh! yay. thks a lot..

2005-02-23T23:49:00.002+08:00

Your Score Summary

Overall, you scored as follows:

91% scored higher (more nerdy), and
9% scored lower (less nerdy).

What does this mean? Your nerdiness is:

Definitely not nerdy, you are probably cool.

2005-02-23T23:49:00.001+08:00

Oh..

2005-02-19T22:44:00.001+08:00

Todae's WG time went quite well. At least it wasn't tt quiet. Thks girls, for paying attention. Even Anna, who didn't like to sit thru long talking stuff. Hope nx wk will be even better. Rmb wad i said abt vertical mtg and not horizontal meeting. I think we're over the the horizontal part but we have to work on the vertical part, if not, there's not meaning..

And todae's service.. the altar call. Wow. I was like starting to tear when i prayed for Esther and Stephanie. I could juz pray on and on..more than wad i could usually pray about. The words juz flowed.. it was reali a great experience. Well, now I know I shouldn't hesitate about telling mi friends abt God. The only difficulty is..they're all so smart, it's hard to get the message through them without them scrutinising ever little single detail, i cldnt answer every qn. well, God will guide me through.

Common tests..

2005-02-14T18:31:00.000+08:00

Having common tests dis wk.. Sigh. Haven't really studied yet, duno if can pull through. Hopefully. Trying to change my blog template but, no time. Wait till aft common tests. Hmm, today's Valentine's Day!! Was juz telling Ming Xuan, it's funni that we dun celebrate but wish each other. =.= Anyway, singleness' a gift!! whaha..;)

Did my QT yesterday and came across this..

"Let us not give up meeting together...but let us encourage one another."
Hebrews 10:25

It hit me that WGs meet for 2 purposes (mebe more..)

"How different Christian gatherings would be if we focused more on the thought that we are not just a group of compatible people getting together but are in reality meeting together with our Lord."
Everyday with Jesus-Experiencing God's Presence

Firstly, as a WG, we should seek God, and not seek to look to be together with our close friends instead.

Secondly, a WG meets to encourage one another. So don't just sit back and talk, talk, talk, encourage someone, be a listening ear!

I'm really grateful for the people around around me who are willing to lend a listening ear. It helps to lighten a load as well. I think they are God-sent..to encourage one another! Thanks for all the encouragements (and the advice. whahaha) =)

Intruder Alert!

2005-02-03T18:53:00.000+08:00

I feel so intruded. Please don't ever cross the boundary. Again. Please respect my privacy.

The Intruder's doing. Go away.

I did my QT last night. Came across a few verses.

"...that no bitter roots grow up to cause trouble and defile many."
Hebrews 12:15

No bitter roots. Don't have anything against them. Don't hold grudges. Have to forgive. But it's so difficult. Learn to let go..

"challenge of learning and forgiving"
Experiencing God's Presence

Ahh..

"Love is patient, love is kind..."
1 Corinthians 13:1-13

Yes, yes, I have to be patient and kind. Dear Lord, please help mi!!!!!!!!!!!!

Don't think I don't know what you did. Don't ever do it again. Never.

Thoughts

2005-01-30T16:40:00.000+08:00

I don't think my old blog would be revivied. Has been down for so many days. Am trying to put change blog skin, put in tag board and links. all these have been missin okay! all my hard work gone down the drain. sigh. anyway, mi new blog add sounds better, at least tt's a comfort. nowadays, all the blog sites not stable!

well, went for the meeting y'dae. i juz realised tt my resposibility is huge. not onli in school but oso in church. choir, function (cheering com), sunbeam, dance, worship and webbers. n i oso wan to join missions. am i over ambitious or wad? is this wad God wans for mi? well, like matt said, sumtimes, u juz have to let go. it seems to me tt mi calling is to lead. i reali have to pray abt it, juz like i have to pray abt so many other stuff too.. to confirm wad God reali wans me to do in mi life. it'll be amazing to see how God will work.

PS. we're almost reaching our goal. dance has almost 30 ppl in total! Praise the Lord!!

newbie

2005-01-27T10:23:00.000+08:00

hey guys! i've got a new blog! woot* cos ebloggy got sum probs, can't wait that long. wanna do sum blogging now! and i've been wanting to change blog site too! whaha.. =)